Tuesday, March 24, 2009

I'm gonna miss this...

I'll never forget the first time I heard this song. I was driving down the 210 when it came on the radio and as I listened to the lyrics, I started to cry so hard I was having trouble seeing the road. It wasn't just that the song was beautiful...what made it so emotional for me was that it brought back a flood of memories. I was the girl in the song...always longing for the next step, looking ahead and not enjoying what I had in the moment. And my dad would always tell me to slow down...someday I would miss those experiences. I remember thinking how crazy he was...only to understand now exactly what he meant.

I do miss those times at home as my parent's daughter. I miss homeschooling and singing together as a family. I miss taking care of my little sisters and doing fun projects with them. I miss the late night talks with my mom and cooking together in the kitchen.

And now that I have my own daughter and we're about to add 2 more children...I know I'm gonna miss these times of just Boo and me together. I'm going to miss just the two of us sharing a laugh or dancing together. I know we'll make more memories together with her brothers...But I know I'm going to miss this season with our first child and life as a family of three.

So, Papa...if you're reading this...I finally got it. You were right. I miss it...I miss you...I miss our times together. And I am making the most of the time I have each day with my little girl and I'll do the same with my sons. And one day, I'm sure I'll be telling them the same thing you told me.


  1. this is such a beautyful song! thanks for sharing :) ...and it´s so true,...me too, I should slow down and enjoy every second of my life....great! :)

  2. ok. so. i've never ever ever been able to listen to melancholy growing up songs. do your remember watercolor ponies? changed the station. friends? same deal. always accompanied with, "Aaaah, I hate this song!" I canNOT take those songs.

    guess i'm weird. ;o)

  3. oh, and that butterfly kisses song. can't do it. and the cinderella song...oh my goodness, what is WITH people!?!?! do they not know I'm emotionally fragile?


  4. Oh, I KNOW! I love that song too! It's so good and so poignant!

  5. You are wise to treasure these final days as a family of three! Going from one child to three children is a huge change! We had one child for seven years, then went to three children in the span of a year. Wonderful blessing, but HUGE change! The PACE of life just quickens dramatically.

  6. Yep, I know what you mean. I have been the "next step girl".

    The day I heard this for the first time, I was having a tired, frustrated mama day.

    Oh, I felt soo bad!

  7. Thank you for your sweet comment! I'll have to go back and read about your journey to your Uganda children :) Congratulations to you!

    I love your Dad's words of wisdom... A great reminder to stop and enjoy this moment!!

  8. Hi, just found your blog. We too are adopting from Uganda a 4.5 yr old boy. We don't know the time frame exactly yet. We hope to have our dossier out to Holt by Thurs/Fri and then hopefully it will go fast. I haven't had time to read much yet, but it's great to connect with other families adopting from Uganda.
    I'd love to find out more details and then of your travel....please feel free to email me. I'd love to find out how travel goes with a little older kids.
    tsfberg at yourstarnet do net